Epps having some problems with Epps...

Three years ago my life changed a lot; mom moved in with my stepdad in some small dump and things wet bad on school. I didn't fit in, the teachers didn't liked my ways of speaking up for myself and others and in the end I wasted 2 years trying to do my final exam and failing because of the poor education I received. At that time I felt bad about myself; how the hale did I fail it TWICE?! During the third try over at a new school things were threatening to fail again which was when I started to develop some serious issues including minor paranoia, my beloved insomnia and a depression filled with suicidal thoughts. I dropped out, gave up on doing the exam and let myself sink further into depression where for some reason I found a comfort zone.

From the start I knew I couldn't stay there for too long even though I have to admit it is really nice down here. I reached out for help and after a very slow start I found some. Meds and a shrink who would think of a way for me to cope with my problems. Yesterday I heard the result of her talking with the board and the only solution for me int his part of the country is to go into a clinical treatment where they will help me cope with my limitations (pddnos is so much fun). I am not sure about this at all, I don't feel like spending 24/5 around some other crazy/weird guys nor do I believe this 4rd attempt will take me far. Even if I finish my final exams what can I do next? Failing at the HBO?

Anyway because of this I am feeling very tired, demotivated and frustrated so excuse me if I act a bit assholish in-game, dont react to you in chats or postpone updates like the hat gallary (images are done btw, just have to insert them in the poorly coded html pages). I just can't make me do anything atm because I cant stop thinking about if I should or should not go clinical which is draining so many of my energy right now. Not that strange since this is a 6~12 month treatment we are talking about and I just hate th eidea of having someone else decide over my future.

tl;dr: sod off and read the text already...

Epps, you strike me as a very clever guy so your failing at school should not be neccesary. It's impossible for people like me who don't know you IRL to give you valuable advice so i won't try. Only thing i can offer is that you should feel free to contact me on steam or skype if you want to talk.

I'm sorry to hear about this bro, If you ever need to talk I'm here to listen and I hope things turn out for the best

I'm sorry to hear that epps. But if I were you. I would treat myself first. Real life is not like tf2. Where you die and appear in spawn again. You only got one chance to live your life. Tf2 will never go away, epps. Take care of yourself. And I hope you feel better.

I'm here for you if you need it.

Yoko and I are here.

Aw thanks guys. I just thought it would be better if I let you know this because it is affecting my ways in the clan now. Normally I keep a pretty good mask on (including irl) so no one notices.

Eraserhead wrote:Epps, you strike me as a very clever guy so your failing at school should not be neccesary. It's impossible for people like me who don't know you IRL to give you valuable advice so i won't try. Only thing i can offer is that you should feel free to contact me on steam or skype if you want to talk.

Yeah that's the problem, I am a smart guy (130 IQ here) but I spend so much energy on coping with myself and not being a dick for others that it affects my grades. Pretty hard thing to do when you you feel half the emotions others do and don't recognize most. Add that to how demotivated I am after all the failures and a lack of future plans and you've got yourself a reason for my failing.

Chuck wrote:I'm sorry to hear about this bro, If you ever need to talk I'm here to listen and I hope things turn out for the best

Me too...

Furgus wrote:I'm sorry to hear that epps. But if I were you. I would treat myself first. Real life is not like tf2. Where you die and appear in spawn again. You only got one chance to live your life. Tf2 will never go away, epps. Take care of yourself. And I hope you feel better.

But if life is not TF2 why do I keep hearing the Announcer go ALERT, THE CONTROL POINT IS BEING CAPTURED?! Ow wait, that's my text tone on my phone. Don't worry Furgus/DS, I am very down to earth and always think things over.

jameless wrote:I'm here for you if you need it.

I know..

LieuTennet wrote:Yoko and I are here.

If I find a Yoko cosplayer at Abunai I am so gonna flirt with her xD Can you imagine it? Engineer <3 Yoko cosplay sex xD

We heart you peppybbq the webmaster / forum admin / in-game admi n / player / awesome dude

My wife has a son out of a former marriage and this kid has a very high IQ as well, i know he has similar problems of handling certain emotions and understanding other people. You should go to a special school but i can imagine such a school is not available in your current area.